Complexity, I must sit with you yet again.
I must stop again, and ponder…

You war with my desire for simplicity
You frustrate my wisdom
You humble my dignity
You invade my certainty with mystery
You remind me of the vast beauty of diversity
You are very stubborn
You are still teaching me a new way to live.

You rudely introduce the thought that…
my way might not be the best way.
You make me slow down
You hinder my progress
You derail my solutions.

Complexity, you violate my logic.
You blur the lines between “us” and “them”
You make me question my views of “others”
You lead me into this wilderness called “the middle”
Where I refuse to choose a side
Yet, I identify with all
You bring loneliness to my life
I hate you for that.

Complexity, oh how I do hate you.
I hate that you lead me to ask hard questions
I hate that you leave me in this desolate place of purgatory
I hate that I can no longer find peace in single-mindedness
I hate that I cannot unknow what you have taught me.
I hate that I can no longer hate.

Complexity.
I suppose I will have to learn to live with you.
Since, I am aware of you now
I see you everywhere
I see you in the wrinkles of an elderly bigot
I see you in the eyes of a newborn infant
You are… opening my mind
And you have taught me to listen to my body
You enhance my vision
You are revealing a different world
You are departing divine wisdom to me.

Complexity.
You have made me an alien
I am a stranger among my people
I no longer want to fit in
Yet, I still want to fit in.
Complexity,
Look what you have done to me.